Out of the mould...

I feel like I have not lived up to expectations, disappointed a few by being myself...I have dared to make my voice be heard about my desires, and my individuality...and ooh how painful the results...am not sure which is better, to privately yearn for expression without disappointing you, or to express myself and become someone you don't like...Am I perhaps imprisoned by the need for your approval? Should I accept that its not coming, but its also not life giving? .....